It's Funny How....

It's funny how your life can change 

Life's plans you have to rearrange 

Your life is turned upside down 

Like a clowns disturbing frown 

It's funny how it just takes a letter or a text

You sit there staring at the content

Feeling completely vexed

Your life is funny in so many ways

Sometimes you have to walk through the haze

And think of Happy and better days.

MUM

The sun shines down on your grave

I'm sat talking to you

Trying to be brave

At times grief is like a gigantic wave

Magpies and crow's swoop around 

Chattering away on the cemetery ground

Feelng lost, but wanting to be found. 

I dream of happier times

When you were here

Sat on a cemetery bench

Your grave so near

My tears fall fast

Thinking about the past

When you were here with  me

And all our family. 

Fear of the unknown.

Fear of the unknown, emotions thrown

No chance to relax, or live life to the max

Sense of fear, life not in gear

Overthinking, fear of sinking

Nothing makes sense anymore 

Nothing linking, please stop thinking

Can't take much more

Feel like being shown the door

My life has been shaken to it's core

I'm a fighter, I will win this war.

Menopause Madness

Hot sweats at night

Day time hot flushes

Brain fog, well what do you know?

Feeling high, Feeling  low

Weight gain, mushy brain

Toss and turn at night

Tinnitus, racing heart

Sometimes I just want to take flight

You hit the menopause 

Everything goes south

Got to be very careful 

What comes out of my mouth 

Not feeling like myself 

Feel like some worn out toy

Left lonely on the shelf 

Myself

Not really liking myself right now

Lot's of things I'd change

Just gotta discover how

I've never been the kind of person

That makes people wanna say WOW!

Need to sort my head out

I'm not the person I want to be

I want to be a different person people see

I know the person I am Isn't me

Only I can change myself

And my way of thinking

I know I can stop myself

From slowly slowly sinking!

As with everything it will take time

Changes always do

I look forward to the day

When someone says Is that really you?

Up's And Downs

Up's and downs

Smiles and frowns

Monsters and clowns

Swimming? or drowns

Life is a merry go ride

Get dizzy at the sights

Step off if you dare

The stairs have many flights

Fight or flight?

Day or night?

Darkness or light?

Sweet dreams, sleep tight

Life has many ways

Of making you choose your path

Decisions decisions

Whether to cry or laugh

You decide............

CHILDHOOD

                   

                         It kinda feels like I imagine Alice would of felt like.Falling, falling, constantly falling.
                       

                         Not knowing when it will stop, or where it will stop.
   

                         Children they say should be seen and not heard. I really wish this had been the case.

                         Children can be so so cruel, nasty, spiteful, unkind, thoughtless specimins.


                          Words, throw away words. Sharp, cutting, embedded in your brain forever.