Myself

Not really liking myself right now

Lot's of things I'd change

Just gotta discover how

I've never been the kind of person

That makes people wanna say WOW!

Need to sort my head out

I'm not the person I want to be

I want to be a different person people see

I know the person I am Isn't me

Only I can change myself

And my way of thinking

I know I can stop myself

From slowly slowly sinking!

As with everything it will take time

Changes always do

I look forward to the day

When someone says Is that really you?

Up's And Downs

Up's and downs

Smiles and frowns

Monsters and clowns

Swimming? or drowns

Life is a merry go ride

Get dizzy at the sights

Step off if you dare

The stairs have many flights

Fight or flight?

Day or night?

Darkness or light?

Sweet dreams, sleep tight

Life has many ways

Of making you choose your path

Decisions decisions

Whether to cry or laugh

You decide............

CHILDHOOD

                   

                         It kinda feels like I imagine Alice would of felt like.Falling, falling, constantly falling.
                       

                         Not knowing when it will stop, or where it will stop.
   

                         Children they say should be seen and not heard. I really wish this had been the case.

                         Children can be so so cruel, nasty, spiteful, unkind, thoughtless specimins.


                          Words, throw away words. Sharp, cutting, embedded in your brain forever.

A Year Without You Mum.

A year without you mum

Here with All of us

A year without you

Telling us all not to fuss

Life just isn't the same anymore 

Some days can be so hard

Simple things like

Not writing you out a birthday card

Not hugging you

Not telling you all my woes

The weeks have gone so fast

And so the first year goes

It doesn't get any easier 

We just find different ways to cope

We know you are looking over us

Filling our hearts with hope

We miss you so very much

It's just hard to comprehend

You weren't just my mum

You were also my best friend 

I miss you so much mum ❤ ♥ xxxx